I lost my camera. My nearly new camera, the best and most beautiful one so far and all because I forgot to close my backpack. I've reported it to the police but I doubt it will turn up. I think I'll be able to buy a new one though, if I save money, it's not as crazy expensive as I'd thought if you buy it from the right place. In the meantime, I'll probably submit old pictures and/or photo-manipulations made from stock photos. I might even install the scanner so I can submit some of my drawings.

The worst part isn't really that I lost the camera itself, it's mostly that I feel awful because it was a gift when my last camera broke. What do normal people do when they feel this guilty? It seems like no matter how many years it's been, my first impulse is always to hurt myself. I don't do it because I'm strong enough not to, but I feel the urge and I have to make an effort to resist. My second impulse is comfort food which isn't much better.

So what do normal people do?